Of You

Beyond shenanigans of darting eyes
Dazzling LED foam sticks, raining confetti

Grass, trampled underfoot, suffocating
In the blistering brew of dust, sweat, alcohol, ecstasy
And loneliness,
A silhouette, 5,000 miles away,
Or closer - storms right through me.
I am lighter than the laser figures
That patrol the sprawling compound
Catching unawares, darting eyes and palpitating veins,
Confining remnants of unresolved arousal
Into an eternal, Sisyphean loop.

I wake up parallel to the ground, floating
With Kaleidoscopic brass in my head, vaguely recall
The tune, and your face.
I see you behind her almost perfect body,
And spotless skin texture. We are not
Making efforts to conceal our glances.
I follow, dodging elbows, judgmental faces, and her
My fingers brush her skin while
You dissolve into wall of music that stands
Before me. I hurtle forward, crash into it
And come out bleeding into a rainbow chamber
Resonant with the echo of your zany laughter.

I follow the neon lights ending
In walls dotted with faces in your likeness. 
The air is infested with disorganized alphabets,
Traipsing from end to end, occasionally
Tracing your name. At times, mine.
I gather a few - your initials - make a pillow
And lie down, lucid dreams and all.
I feel you, the brass and your face.
May be I don't. I am losing myself, fading
Slowly with the rainbows.